23 Jun 2023


The heat continued also on Monday and my new ventilator was the only one which worked ! Even Rosie loved it. I tried to recuperate the photos I had bunkered at Photobucket. Since my password didn't work anymore, I tried to get in somehow to my pictures and it worked, I don't know how, but suddenly all the pictures were there. Now I emptied my own account and copied the photos into my computer of course only the important once. The others generously I left them. I felt like a Hacker, maybe I should try this with my bank ? 

I found some very to me very precious pictures of our last stay together in Italy visiting Rick's best friend who passed away three years ago.

The next day my nose itched and I got really angry another cold ?? I called my doctor and went to her in the afternoon. She was also surprised to see me so quickly again and decided to do a complete blood test. In the afternoon the sky became nearly black and it started to rain. It looked worse than it was, but a few km further there were terrible thunderstorms with lots of rain. The farmers were happy !

Fortunately it rained only during night and when I went early morning to the next building where a nurse looking normal and not  like Dracula put a needle and not her teeth in my arm and filled 4 flasks with my precious blood. Now I have to wait for the results.

In the afternoon I went to my neighbor Nicole, rang the bell and it didn't work. I banged on the door (for once I had forgotten my telephone) but she didn't hear me. I went up again and called, she was there of course and annoyed that her bell doesn't work despite the fact that she was wearing her hearing aids.

Just when I was starting this post, my internet broke down. Meanwhile I had learned how to check and what to do to get it working again, but it didn't. Finally I called my provider for help. Instead of having a human being on the phone I got the usual robot menu : for French push 1, for Flemish push 2 and then the whole thing from invoice problems until a new offer ! And that is called a help line ? I hope I don't have that in case I call the firemen and they ask me first if the fire is in French or in Flemish ! By the time I have the right service on the phone my house will burn down ! This new invention or not so new anymore since the COVID, exists apparently in the whole world now ! To make a phone call for something you have to take a day off.   

I wanted to buy me a summer dress, but it had started to rain during night and then there were cats and dogs falling from heaven the whole day ! 


I preferred to stay home, as  I became fragile like an orchid, I was afraid of catching something again, therefore I looked on internet and found out that Princess Cathrine's (also known as Kate) dresses were the hit ! (Copies of course).

Besides being Rosie's servant to open and close the door to the terrace all the time, because she didn't believe me that it rained, I watched "Britain got talent" which my grandson Toby had recommended to me !

can I go out now ? I think it stopped raining (or not ?)

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22 Jun 2023


1. Hello Summer! In the eastern hemisphere anyway. What's something on your summer bucket list? Do you have an actual summer bucket list? If not, use your hypothetical list. 

Summer it is, according to the temperatures we have ! I hate lists in general and only do a shopping list not to forget the half of what I wanted to buy. But it still happens.  I also have a "luggage" list for travels. My list is as empty as my brain ! 


2. What for you is the defining scent of summer? 

woods or sea

3. What's a (music, food, wine, or flower) festival happening in your part of the country that you would like to attend if tickets/travel/timing was no object? 

I always liked festivals, but this year I don't feel like it, it's only a year ago I am called "a widow"

4. Apparently a military whistle blower claims the US has a UFO retrieval program. What say you? Do you believe aliens are out there? 


Of course I believe it, especially when they come from IKEA.

5. Besides your wedding day and the birthdays of any children you may have, what are three of your top experiences in life? 

I can't remember any top experiences in my life  since I got three sad once, when Rick was diagnosed Parkinson and later Alzheimer, when he lost his mind and I couldn't talk to him anymore, and then the phone call that he had passed away. It's all wiped out.

6. Insert your own random thought here. 

I feel empty, and have no energy, anyway the thoughts I may have are all sad too. 

But if nothing worse will happen, I return to Eastbourne (England) the place which gives me peace I booked already the hotel for 7 days. 




21 Jun 2023


When I saw the Lake of Garda in Italy for the very first time, the view, coming out of the high mountains was just breath taking.

This is the place my husband came from. (This picture was taken when we were there together in 2010)

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19 Jun 2023







I had the blues this weekend. Saturday it was too hot and I didn't want to go out, but I had too, I had no fruits and bread anymore. I wanted to do a lot of things, with the result that I did nothing, excepting looking for an old Flickr account to find some pictures I had stored there. But they were not interesting it was all about my painting course and an Album of London, which I have on my external disk. 

I am angry with Photobucket which I used when Blogger photo download didn't work and now they want me to pay for it and as I didn't because for years it was free and then suddenly I should pay for old stuff ? Fortunately I could replace them but they are not so important. I think it's not honest to say it's free for years and then suddenly you should pay for photos which are 10 or more years old ??

My umbrella broke I could close it, but good Maria had enough strength to do it for me. Now I have half an umbrella which I can't use.  We have no service for big junk which don't fit in a bin and you have to drive to the next village were they take everything also furniture. My son fortunately takes big things in his trunk and takes it with him to Amsterdam ! 

As every Friday I went to see Nicole, she was in a good mood and very well. We could go and sit in the big garden. There I met a man I knew from the Retirement home where Rick was, with his wife I asked her why he is now here, he has a cancer at the vocal chords A very intelligent man, but hard to understand. We had a coffee together and it had been a nice afternoon. His wife moved him, because she lives exactly one street further and has just to cross the street. There hadn't been a place for him before.

On Sunday I felt even worse, I wanted to stay in bed the whole day. I had found too many pictures from the past. My grief is worse now, than as it was just a few month when Rick passed away. I realized that I have changed I have become very sensible and without energy. I don't even think about traveling anymore, only to Amsterdam or Eastbourne maybe.

Yesterday three years ago we moved from our house here to the apartment. Rick liked it very much it was not far from the Tennis Club where he used to play Whist. It was just around the corner. Unfortunately our life together in this new place only lasted 6 months. 


Then he fell out of his bed, broke a hip and had to be taken to hospital. He came back twice as a visitor when he was in the retirement home, but  then he preferred to stay "home".

She is not better !