With the approvement or recomendation all people who love or like me a bit, told me that I absolutely have to go away and not stay home to try to finish one chapter of my life and start a new one as a widow. When I had to say this sentence for the first time "I am a widow" I got a shock and told myself I will never say that to anybody in the hotel. It hurt too much.
It's so strange, I am so used to travel alone since 2009 when Rick and I went to Italy to visit the family, but now that he is not there anymore, my grief is even worse. I miss the phone calls in the evening and also the fact that he doesn't pick me up that I will find an empty apartment although he had shared it with me only for 6 month.
The airport was a nightmare, I had to be 4 hours in advance, but there were so many people at the assistance and only one employee who had to do the paperwork. Instead of taking us with a little electric vehicule, they used wheelchairs and of course there were not enough personal ! In short the plane left 20 min late and I arrived half dead and as soon as I was in my room I had to cry and wanted to fly back.
After breakfast the next morning I had a look around the hotel and indeed it is very beautiful. I have an enormous room, with view on the sea. The food is delicious but I am not hungry. Here is no lack of vegetables and fruits it's all there in abondance. There is more than enough personal and everybody seems to be content. Fortunately I left Europe and am in another world,
Everything what I wanted was there and even more a real Wellness as a part of the hotel. There is a swimming pool with seawater and 5 whirlpools in the corners, a part of the big pool with waves, and it's half inside half outside. The water very warm and there are not many people so far as the high season only started today. The majority of the guests are French. I also had my first massage but the girl said that it takes a few sessions I am too tense. I hope all this will at least restablish my physical condition.